Changing Direction

Today I found myself wondering if I was really getting anywhere closer to where I wanted to be. It was a feeling of being stuck, or at least not really progressing towards any foreseeable goal. Being a rather future orientated person, this can become quite a big problem because with an unsure future ahead, what is there to look forward to?

I think a lot of people must feel a similar way at one time or another. Problems arise when dreams or expectations don't meet realities, because the world can be a difficult place. You can't really expect anybody other than yourself to get you where you want to go, which is why motivation and drive are so important.

At the moment, I'm working for a company called Bartle & Gibson, which is a Plumbing and Electrical wholesaler. The company itself is great, since it is a very relaxed environment and they really look after their employees - the pay is good, the bonuses are good, and they offer lots of supplies in the kitchen like drinks etc. The workers there are really good and friendly as well, which can be just as important. You can see from all these great things I have to say about the company that I should be happy, even lucky to be working at such a place. Unfortunately I'm not. I think the main problem is the fact that this job has absolutely nothing to do with the area I want to get into, which is film making. Sure, everything else is just great, but this important factor really bugs me.

I think for the most part most people are fairly easy to please - most people are perfectly happy to accept a stable job, get a stable place to live, and generally live a stable life without having to worry about much at all. The job gives them money, which they can use to put towards a house, car, and all the other little bits and pieces they really want. Of course, jobs don't usually give you much free time to yourself, so you're really giving up most of your time for the necessities of life, as well as a few things. For some reason its hard for me to accept that kind of life, and I know I'm not alone. I've met a lot of people, which I can only describe as "restless". The type of people that enjoy to travel, or who enjoy to work in jobs that offer a lot of variety and change.

This is one of the primary reasons that film making appeals to me. There is just so much variety and things to keep interest piqued.

Maybe its for the best that I am leaving there in three weeks time, although I'm sure I will miss the place and the people working there. As to what I will do after that, I'm not entirely sure right now. But I've decided to get back on track with my goals, and will keep everything posted.

“If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.” Lao Tzu