The Horrors of Research

For the last week or so I have been caught in the clutches of something terrible, something that would no doubt bring insanity to the strongest willed individual. Unless, of course, you enjoy research. For me, its not so much the research itself, as we don't actually have to actualize the research yet, its just the process of writing a huge Research Proposal and preparing a presentation for it.

It seems almost ridiculous to put so much work into a proposal. It feels like having to write a novel about the novel you are planning to write, without actually writing anything that will be in the planned novel later. After a week of heavy thinking, I'm into the day before both are due without much done. I've changed my topic about four or five times now, for lack of previous research that I can add into my literature review. As it stands at the moment, I'm going for at least a C or a D, seeing as I already scored an A- for the essay and shouldn't do too poorly on the upcoming exam. So basically I just have to hand something in, as long as its not too bad. Like as long as its not a blank piece of paper... I was thinking of posting some of it up on my blog but I won't put anyone through having to read it.

I just can't wait until its over. My feelings of angst and general unhappiness seem to have extended outwards, and I find myself in the garb of an emo. Sad days...